High Voltage

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   You know, I never really expected you to be this much of a jerk.
Honeslty, what would posess you to put something like that in your sig?

For those who dont know, I contracted aids this past weekend. I was at
a party with a special female friend with who I had recently gotten
back together with. She separated herself from me because she didnt
like the way I would talk and flirt with other girls. Fair enough.It happened nearly a month ago, and it didnt bother me to much.  

after my district swim meet on saturday, I went to a party with the
team and other people, and she was there. We began talking, and in the
playful and intoxicated atmosphere, someone suggested makeup sex. I
didnt see how it could hurt, so I went along with it. 

What happened in the bedroom happened, but as I was taking the condom
off, I noticed that it had broken. My heart sunk. Before I could think
of anything else, I started thinking of places to get the morning after
pill. I didnt want to, nor could I support a child, and the thought of
having one with a girl I didnt even come close to loving made it much
worse. 

She noticed and began uttering things under her breath, sobbing softly,
and saying she was sorry. I didnt konw what she could be sorry about,
because it wasnt her fault the condom broke, and I already knew she was
willing to take the morning after pill(throgh previous "what if"
conversations). I asked why, and she said she has AIDS.  That was
a much, much worse feeling than I had before. I didnt know what to
think. I didnt konw if there could be some off chance that I might not
contract it, I didnt konw how I would explain to my parents what
happened, and the hopelessness overwhelmed me. 

I went to get a test as soon as I could. I let my parents know what
happened, and again the overwhelming feeling of hopelessness and
sadness consumed me, because I realized that my parents were losing
their only son. I felt as though they should be disapointed in me for
making such a bad descision, even though the descision wasnt mine to
make. I did what I could to prevent what I could(aside from celabacy,
obviously). 

The test came out HIV positive. 

I didnt expect people to be sorry for me, but I certainly didnt expect
someone to make fun of me, or do what High Voltage did. Thats just
heartless, even if it is over the internet. 

I dont even know what to say to you. Empty threats dont mean enough, and wishing the same on you isnt enough. 

I hope none of you are ever put in this situation. 